((SIGH)) Back on Meds

My crazy doctor is making me to another 2 week cycle of synthroid! Thats the crap that caused me to gain the weight in the first place........this totally sucks but I guess I'll have to make the best of it! Its ONLY 2 weeks.......it cant do that much damage.

Weight loss reward!!

Don't get me wrong....a total of 9 pounds isnt even breaking the ice for me BBUUUT.....I thought it was a good excuse to treat myself. YAY! I ran across the cutest shoes online and I got them. I refused to buy any new clothes since I started gaining weight from my meds.......I probably wont buy any thing new until I'm at least at the 70% marker. But......theres nothing wrong with a pair of cute shoes??? Right??? ((SMILE)) of
course not........plus they're just motivation.



The'ye not Christian Louboutin but they'll work!!

"To be young or a hooker" ~Joan Rivers

((SIGH)) 3 MORE POUNDS

So......its Monday and I'm down 3 more pounds........I know I should be happy but I'm kinda feeling disappointed about it. I cheated on my diet and exercise because I was a little sick.........but hey...its better than nothing! So HORRAY for that. Also........no more weekly loss goals, I dont want to set myself up for disappointment.......I'm doing pretty good and I want to keep my positive attitude! ((SMILE)).
ON TO A NEW WEEK DOLLS!!!

No SUNDAY weigh in.......

I'm staying with my grandmother tonight and wont be back till tomorrow........and I know if I weigh myself in the afternoon, I'll be disappointed. I always seem to weigh more in the afternoon.......maybe its the all water I drink......but it never fails.....afternoon weigh-ins suck! Oh well.......I guess I'll have to weigh in Monday morning.

I have a date with the SCALE!

I anxious and nervous to step on the scale tomorrow.......I kinda cheated on my diet a little........I ate cereal! Yuck! and I hate kids cereal........... I bought my daughter some of those Berry Berry Kix and box was calling me every time I walked by!! I don't like sweets and I don't like kiddie cereal but it just smelled so good to me. I sat at the table watch my daughter enjoy spoon after spoon.......It just looked so good......I finally asked my daughter to have a taste and she replies, "are you SUPPOSED to be eating this?" (as she covers her bowl), that little! So shamefully I waited until she went out to play and got some anyway! So...sad. There was no reason I needed to binge on kiddie cereal......my diet allows me to have plenty of tasty food........but I guess its true, we always want what we cant have. Plus, dieting and PMS DO NOT MIX!!!! Cant wait to see what the scale says.

I think I F*&%#ed up

My daughter caught a simple cold on tuesday........and I catch something far worse on wednesday. Its only lasted a day and a half but it felt like forever!!! I hope this doesnt hinder my weight loss......because its seemed like everything that was on my diet, made me sick......so I ate some healthy foods but they were loaded with carbohydrates. Maybe it was a phantom sickness......maybe this was just my mind playing tricks on me so I would have an excuse to taste those lovely carbs........(they were VERY tasty).... oh well, I'm starting to feel better.........I'll be back on track by this afternoon.

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I finally found HELL!

I bravely decided to go to Nordstrom yesterday to grab some make up and sweat pants.........Its must have been forever since I've went shopping in a large department store because I forgot about those HUGE, mirror covered pillars they have everywhere!! And its seems like thery're "FunHouse" mirrors because there is noooooo way i look that bad. I mean.....my body looked like a GIANT egg with a little head on it and my ankles looked soooo tiny that I actually looked as if I was just hovering above my shoes! UUUGGHGHH! And to put the icing on the cake......I had to pick up a pair of size 00 jeans for my daughter.......oh, and have them taken in about an inch. Yes, I have a lovely daughter.........beautiful and funny..........and can eat any and everything.
((sigh))..... There is an event coming up at my favorite lounge.......not sure if I feel up to going...(watch the video below).
Lol....Im totally over it already and I feel way better. ((smile))


MY FAVORITE LOUNGE IN DC.......

6 Pounds DOWN in 1 week!!

I was sooooo happy to step on the scale this morning (I've been trying to avoid it all week)........and I'm DOWN 6 WHOLE POUNDS!!! Yay me....... I'm really happy but something inside of me is still a little down that I didnt make my 7 pound mark. I guess I have to step it up this week......I set a second high goal of 6 to 7 pounds this week............We'll see what happens next sunday.

No More HUNGER!

This is great........usually when I wake up in the morning...I'm starving but not TODAY.....as a matter of fact..... I wasnt hungy all day yesterday! WHOOOHOO! I'm starting to feel really motivated. I had a fab dinner last night, chicken alfredo with NO PASTA.....just chicken breast with a little alfredo sauce on it ans steamed broccoli. It was soooooo good. I cant wait to see what the scale says sunday morning...... I'm hoping (and praying) for a whapping 7 pounds (maybe thats a bit much)......but thats not stopping me. 


Here's more....

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My ADDICTION............The Scale!

I know I shouldn't weigh myself daily but.......I cant help it. It's calling me...Daaannn'Yellle???? Lets see how much weight you DIDN'T lose. Its worse than a drug. But I'm not gonna do it.....I'll hold out til sunday morning.
Also.....it seems like I'm more in control of my hunger after only 3 days! Im OH SO HAPPY about that, maybe thing low carb thing is working.

Advice: Be Your Own Best Friend

Pressure and Motivation

I was just sitting back looking at some pictures thinking about how hard it is to have beautiful friends. I never felt the need to compete with my friends but something in my mind still wants to.........or needs to. Its a sucky feeling.

This is one of my best friends Karen (she's the brunette on the right). She has an amazing body and she is so beautiful. I'm never jealous for some reason because at even at my size.....I still think I'm pretty cute ((smile)), but its hard not to envy.


Okay.....this is my BFF Dezi! Again.......Thin and Beautiful!!

(Yes!!! Thats me on the left)

Here's my BGF (Best GUY Friend) Christophe! (UGHHH!)


Here are some Pics of me!!!!

Me at Work!




Me NOW!!!!! (AT MY LARGEST!)
.......This was more like....180ish.

First Blog EVER!!!!

Okay........So I just stepped on the scale and it read a crazy 196!!! How is this possible? Lol....I still wear a size 9/10 (like thats something to brag about.....)! Oh well, I knew it was bad but damn.......(sigh). This is gonna be alot harder than I thought. My goal is to lose 76 pounds by my birthday and I'm sooooooo excited about feeling like myself again. I feel like I've been walking around in someone elses big ass body for the last year and a half. I totally miss my old things that I cant fit anymore.........I have brand new jeans with the tags still on them.....and I REFUSE...REFUSE to give them away so I can walk down the street one day and see some tacky beotch wearing them....ughhhh! Sound a little bitter.....I am..lol..........but now I see why so many overweight people are haters, it comes with the body. Oh well......I just cant wait to be happy with myself again (how I look anyway). I have so many good things going on right now and getting rid of this weight is just the last peice of the puzzle.Wish me Luck................What I'm doing
*(Supplements)
    ECA Stack
    ALA
 *30 to 45 min Elliptical (twice a day)
 *Free weights (M,W,F: Upper & T,TH,S: Lower)
 *800 to 1000 calories a day 
 *2 Liters of water daily
 *Multivitamin
 *Low Carb diet
 * No soda, No juice, No sugar, No flour, No candy (so sad),
   you get the picture      
(We'll see what happens in a week)        
February 8, 2011:   196.4 (start weight)

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