This is a bitter sweet loss for me. I did turn to my ugly friend Phentermine but I don't think that's what did it. I've been struggling with the relationship between my ex and I and I have been so depressed over it. I loved him so much and he just keeps breaking my heart. Yesterday I made the decision that I can't do it anymore and I am not going to contact him at all. We had a rough 3 years and he is actually a amazing person and I don't think I will ever stop loving him. I miss him every minute of everyday but in doing so I have forgotten to love myself. And truly, I am the only person that can make me happy. I really want to be happy with someone one day but maybe its not today. I definitely have to get back to the old me and enjoy life on my own. I think losing him will give me the motivation to keep losing weight.....when you lose weight weight, you find confidence and nothing feels better than new found confidence. :o)
I have a friend that really wants to get to know me better and I constantly avoid meeting up with him because I feel bad that he is super ripped and in shape and i'm a little chunkster. I think I feel like he shouldn't be attracted to me but he keeps trying.......I think i'll give him a call in a couple of weeks.....he's really hot so I've been reluctant. Oh well, a better day is ahead and i'm looking forward to enjoying every moment life has to offer. It wont be easy, true love is a hard to put aside, and I say put aside because if its true love, it never fades.....and I truly love him. The days of crying on my bathroom floor are still here and they will be for a while but hopefully soon I will be able to say that there is no more sadness and only good times from this day on!